To date, many things have happened to my family, my friends and my personal lives... too many things happening at once that my brain cannot digest all of it...
I believe all these things happened for a reason, and that this is just a test from Him. He wants to know which path we have chosen in order to overcome the problem... For now, I just pray that my family will be protected from all evil, jealousy or hatred and overcome this problem in the best way as possible...
Insyaallah, this could be my last post in this blog or perhaps, I could be changing to another blog where only my closest ones know of. It's time to keep a close and small circle of social life, even on social media.
Leah AA
Thursday 23 April 2015
Wednesday 25 March 2015
Kukubird is out!
16 March 2015
Yup, from the title, you might have guessed it correctly. I'm expecting a SON.
My intuition was right. I knew I was carrying a boy but I just refuse to affirm my instinct and still look at cute baby girl pictures. But hey, I don't hate my SON. In fact, I love him more and more. My heart explode with love while looking at this scan picture. He is sooooo CUTE!
I'm feeling worried about taking care of a baby boy for the first time. The last time that I took care of a baby boy was when my younger brother was young. That was ages ago. No doubt I have 2 nephews but I never had the chance to be close to them since they stay far away. So I'm pretty anxious on what to expect in caring for a son.
Secondly, we haven't decide on a name for him. Surely we have time left but deciding on a boy's name is seriously tough. I mean, look at the options available? Some names sounds too old-fashioned but with great Islamic meanings. Then, I also thought of what if one day, when my kid is a little bigger and I'm out shopping with him in the mall, how do I bring him to the Ladies? LOL. I will feel weird.
Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mr. Husband. You've got a Kukubird for your birthday. Haha!
Hey little guy, your mommy have so much to learn. But I've not love you any lesser after knowing that you're a boy. I love the way you kick mommy hard, because that's how active a boy should be right my love? Keep kicking and be a superman in my womb :D
Leah A A
Yup, from the title, you might have guessed it correctly. I'm expecting a SON.
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I'm feeling worried about taking care of a baby boy for the first time. The last time that I took care of a baby boy was when my younger brother was young. That was ages ago. No doubt I have 2 nephews but I never had the chance to be close to them since they stay far away. So I'm pretty anxious on what to expect in caring for a son.
Secondly, we haven't decide on a name for him. Surely we have time left but deciding on a boy's name is seriously tough. I mean, look at the options available? Some names sounds too old-fashioned but with great Islamic meanings. Then, I also thought of what if one day, when my kid is a little bigger and I'm out shopping with him in the mall, how do I bring him to the Ladies? LOL. I will feel weird.
Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mr. Husband. You've got a Kukubird for your birthday. Haha!
Hey little guy, your mommy have so much to learn. But I've not love you any lesser after knowing that you're a boy. I love the way you kick mommy hard, because that's how active a boy should be right my love? Keep kicking and be a superman in my womb :D
Leah A A
Friday 6 March 2015
Fear of Needles :(
I'm feeling quite depressed thinking about childbirth lately. I know I have to fear the contractions or rather the "giving birth" part more but no. I'm more afraid of the IV insertion, episiotomy and stitching! Anything got to do with sharp objects like needles makes my legs go jelly, I swear.
The fear gets worst at night. I will google for childbirth story and can't help but to read the gory ones. LOL. And shortly after, I get depressed and feel like crying. Hubby always scold me for that and he just don't understand why I am so keen in gory scenes and stuff since day 1. Hahaha! I can't help it, that's just me! I even have trouble refraining from clicking on gory posts on news feed but of course I try not to!
I feel like opting for epidural but I once saw a video on how the epidural was being administered which was quite horrifying. Needles are already bad enough but they insert a tube?! God, I can't take this or imagine that thing poking through my spine. How like that? If only epidural is as easy as swallowing a tablet or inhaling gas. Boohoo! I really admire those who don't fear needles at all!
So how should I handle the pain from the IV insertion and stitches? I want to cry!!!
About labour, I've never felt the pain so it's quite hard to feel fear for it. They've said it feels like menses cramp x 100. The worst menses cramp I had wasn't that painful anyway so I truly cannot imagine :(
Even the toughest mummy out there will say labour pain is the worst pain that is beyond description. Die la like that!
Some said doing yoga and brisk walking will be able to assist pregnant ladies to have a smooth and safe delivery. I'm starting my yoga classes soon and hopefully can find time to brisk walk around the stadium on the weekends. I hope I can build a high tolerance for pain and just treat labour like taking a huge dump. HEHE.
Sometimes I wonder, what I have gotten myself into. But I have never regretted once. If my mom can give birth to 5 children, why can't I? Each time I feel Beanie's movement, I feel a certain kind of happiness which I can't describe. It's wonderful. It can make you tear. The little bundle of joy, insyaallah, will soon be only mine to hold and love.
I love you, my child, even before we met.
Leah A A
The fear gets worst at night. I will google for childbirth story and can't help but to read the gory ones. LOL. And shortly after, I get depressed and feel like crying. Hubby always scold me for that and he just don't understand why I am so keen in gory scenes and stuff since day 1. Hahaha! I can't help it, that's just me! I even have trouble refraining from clicking on gory posts on news feed but of course I try not to!
I feel like opting for epidural but I once saw a video on how the epidural was being administered which was quite horrifying. Needles are already bad enough but they insert a tube?! God, I can't take this or imagine that thing poking through my spine. How like that? If only epidural is as easy as swallowing a tablet or inhaling gas. Boohoo! I really admire those who don't fear needles at all!
So how should I handle the pain from the IV insertion and stitches? I want to cry!!!
About labour, I've never felt the pain so it's quite hard to feel fear for it. They've said it feels like menses cramp x 100. The worst menses cramp I had wasn't that painful anyway so I truly cannot imagine :(
Even the toughest mummy out there will say labour pain is the worst pain that is beyond description. Die la like that!
Some said doing yoga and brisk walking will be able to assist pregnant ladies to have a smooth and safe delivery. I'm starting my yoga classes soon and hopefully can find time to brisk walk around the stadium on the weekends. I hope I can build a high tolerance for pain and just treat labour like taking a huge dump. HEHE.
Sometimes I wonder, what I have gotten myself into. But I have never regretted once. If my mom can give birth to 5 children, why can't I? Each time I feel Beanie's movement, I feel a certain kind of happiness which I can't describe. It's wonderful. It can make you tear. The little bundle of joy, insyaallah, will soon be only mine to hold and love.
I love you, my child, even before we met.
Leah A A
Tuesday 24 February 2015
The Growth Spurt
I feel like a fat pig, eating meals in between meals. My appetite seems to be coming back and I get hungry every 2 hours. Just earlier, I had kimchi soup with rice and as if that wasn't enough. I went to Pastamania and bought Chicken Caesar Salad right after lunch. I hope I gain some weight since my last scan but not too much that all the fats come right from my body. LOL.
Yesterday I had the most painful and scariest cramp in my stomach. I thought I needed to make "chocolate cake" and rushed to the toilet. While squirming on the toilet seat, the pain did not go away even when the "cake" starts coming out (sorry, tmi!). It was getting more and more painful that I felt like crying. I was worried about Beanie's safety and kept praying hard that I won't bleed next. I was too exhausted with the pain that even to clean my own bottom with tissue requires so much effort till I felt tired. I even had a sick mind to just wear my undies and forget about cleaning (but I didn't!) What's wrong with me?
After a good 30 minutes in the toilet, I went back to my desk and start to Google for more advice. Apparently, a lot of mums out there do experience this at 18 weeks pregnancy and it is common as this period is the period where our little baby is having growth spurt. Woah! So pain like that one ah? Then childbirth how?
Just then, a friend told me a good news that she is also expecting and she is 6 weeks away from me! Awesome possum! Now I have a friend to share my experience with, and even go to yoga sessions together! Yay! Syukur Alhamdullilah, I pray for us both to have a smooth and healthy pregnancy...
At night, Hubby and I turned in early. I was awakened at 2 in the morning because of a pain I felt in my tummy. Gosh, it was the same pain I had in the afternoon except that it's much more tolerable. The pain carried on for half and hour but it wasn't too bad since I could curl up in bed. I complained to Hubby in the morning and he said that his colleagues mentioned it was probably the baby growing bigger. Really?? I hope so!
Beanie, if you are growing and is healthy, Mommy don't mind suffering this pain. But, please2 be safe, because Mommy is worried sick. Can't wait to see you on 16th March. *lots of kisses*
Leah A A
Yesterday I had the most painful and scariest cramp in my stomach. I thought I needed to make "chocolate cake" and rushed to the toilet. While squirming on the toilet seat, the pain did not go away even when the "cake" starts coming out (sorry, tmi!). It was getting more and more painful that I felt like crying. I was worried about Beanie's safety and kept praying hard that I won't bleed next. I was too exhausted with the pain that even to clean my own bottom with tissue requires so much effort till I felt tired. I even had a sick mind to just wear my undies and forget about cleaning (but I didn't!) What's wrong with me?
After a good 30 minutes in the toilet, I went back to my desk and start to Google for more advice. Apparently, a lot of mums out there do experience this at 18 weeks pregnancy and it is common as this period is the period where our little baby is having growth spurt. Woah! So pain like that one ah? Then childbirth how?
Just then, a friend told me a good news that she is also expecting and she is 6 weeks away from me! Awesome possum! Now I have a friend to share my experience with, and even go to yoga sessions together! Yay! Syukur Alhamdullilah, I pray for us both to have a smooth and healthy pregnancy...
At night, Hubby and I turned in early. I was awakened at 2 in the morning because of a pain I felt in my tummy. Gosh, it was the same pain I had in the afternoon except that it's much more tolerable. The pain carried on for half and hour but it wasn't too bad since I could curl up in bed. I complained to Hubby in the morning and he said that his colleagues mentioned it was probably the baby growing bigger. Really?? I hope so!
Beanie, if you are growing and is healthy, Mommy don't mind suffering this pain. But, please2 be safe, because Mommy is worried sick. Can't wait to see you on 16th March. *lots of kisses*
Leah A A
Tuesday 3 February 2015
Last Weekend
Last weekend was full of emotional turmoil for me. From being excited, to worried sick, then to happy again, and finally exhausted. I'll tell you why...
Hubby and I were doing some shopping at Courts for our new home and were excited with all the pre-CNY sales that they are having. I simply love shopping at Courts because of the varieties they have under 1 roof and also the delivery convenience as compared to other furniture shops. Looking at TV consoles, to dining room, to TV, etc., I was really tempted to buy every single thing! I know Hubby was trying hard to control his temptation in buying a TV but with so much sale going on, who can resist! Boys and his gadgets, hehe! Frankly, our purpose of going to Courts was to get some items for Beanie. My mom is sponsoring few items for her unborn grandchild and told us that we better complete furnishing Beanie's room. But what did we end up shopping for? LOL.
After a while, we decided to drop by IKEA to see what they have and I went to the loo. As usual, I slide down my panties, and sat on the toilet bowl and got a shock of my life!!!
BROWN DISCHARGE!!
Holy shit! What just happened? Am I bleeding? Why I don't feel any cramps? Is baby fine? I remembered I was trembling with fear. My only thoughts were on Beanie, praying and praying that it is healthy and fine. I rushed out of the toilet after washing my hands and looked for hubby who were busy looking at the sofa bed section. I told him what happened and we gave KK Hospital a call (they charge $0.80 per minute, like wtf!) and I was told to come to the 24hrs clinic at KK.
Off we went to KK in a cab and throughout the journey, I couldn't think straight. Hubby started to look for clues what could have happened from the internet and assured me that many other pregnant ladies have brown discharge and their baby is fine. I refuse to believe the internet! I need to hear it from the doctor myself!
The wait for my turn was horrible. I was so scared that I tried putting my negative thoughts away by playing Cookie Jam. LOL. When my turn was next, the doctor did an U/S and said "Your baby is fine. There's a heartbeat" and showed me the screen. Syukur Alhamdullilah! I thought that's it and then she said she has to check for any bleeding. I didn't know what that meant but I was told to spread my legs (luckily I shaved my pussy the day before!) and she inserted some longish metal-like feeling into my vijajay! Yikes!
She shoved it in even more and I yelped in pain! What the f***!!
The experience was uncomfortable and horrible! But when she confirmed there is no bleeding, I felt relieved and all the pain did not matter anymore. I was happy I could see Beanie that day. Thank God for letting me keep this baby :D The discharge could be just some old blood from my cervix.
Since all the good mood is back, we made our way back to Courts and continued shopping (spent so much on taxi fares -_-). After rounding a few times, we finally made purchases for TV, TV console, washing machine and bedsheet, and few curtains and blackboard from IKEA. Tired but happy couple we are! I can't wait for 11th and 13th Feb when our items will reach us.
Leah A A
Hubby and I were doing some shopping at Courts for our new home and were excited with all the pre-CNY sales that they are having. I simply love shopping at Courts because of the varieties they have under 1 roof and also the delivery convenience as compared to other furniture shops. Looking at TV consoles, to dining room, to TV, etc., I was really tempted to buy every single thing! I know Hubby was trying hard to control his temptation in buying a TV but with so much sale going on, who can resist! Boys and his gadgets, hehe! Frankly, our purpose of going to Courts was to get some items for Beanie. My mom is sponsoring few items for her unborn grandchild and told us that we better complete furnishing Beanie's room. But what did we end up shopping for? LOL.
After a while, we decided to drop by IKEA to see what they have and I went to the loo. As usual, I slide down my panties, and sat on the toilet bowl and got a shock of my life!!!
BROWN DISCHARGE!!
Holy shit! What just happened? Am I bleeding? Why I don't feel any cramps? Is baby fine? I remembered I was trembling with fear. My only thoughts were on Beanie, praying and praying that it is healthy and fine. I rushed out of the toilet after washing my hands and looked for hubby who were busy looking at the sofa bed section. I told him what happened and we gave KK Hospital a call (they charge $0.80 per minute, like wtf!) and I was told to come to the 24hrs clinic at KK.
Off we went to KK in a cab and throughout the journey, I couldn't think straight. Hubby started to look for clues what could have happened from the internet and assured me that many other pregnant ladies have brown discharge and their baby is fine. I refuse to believe the internet! I need to hear it from the doctor myself!
The wait for my turn was horrible. I was so scared that I tried putting my negative thoughts away by playing Cookie Jam. LOL. When my turn was next, the doctor did an U/S and said "Your baby is fine. There's a heartbeat" and showed me the screen. Syukur Alhamdullilah! I thought that's it and then she said she has to check for any bleeding. I didn't know what that meant but I was told to spread my legs (luckily I shaved my pussy the day before!) and she inserted some longish metal-like feeling into my vijajay! Yikes!
She shoved it in even more and I yelped in pain! What the f***!!
The experience was uncomfortable and horrible! But when she confirmed there is no bleeding, I felt relieved and all the pain did not matter anymore. I was happy I could see Beanie that day. Thank God for letting me keep this baby :D The discharge could be just some old blood from my cervix.
Since all the good mood is back, we made our way back to Courts and continued shopping (spent so much on taxi fares -_-). After rounding a few times, we finally made purchases for TV, TV console, washing machine and bedsheet, and few curtains and blackboard from IKEA. Tired but happy couple we are! I can't wait for 11th and 13th Feb when our items will reach us.
Leah A A
Thursday 29 January 2015
Nursery Room is All I can think of now...
I'm really trying to survive as time ticks slowly in the office.
After chatting with mom yesterday, I can't wait to start decorating my nursery room for little Beanie because she is sponsoring some items to ease us financially. Initially hubs and I wanted to make it simple and easy, just placing a mattress and recycle our Toyogo storage to store baby stuff since baby will grow up fast. Hubs ever mentioned that he only wanted 1 child (although he ever asked for at least 2) and that's because he is worried he cannot support the child financially.
So this could be or could be not... my only child (I wanted 3!!)
If it is, then I should take this opportunity and do up my nursery room like every other new moms right? Besides, what if I never get the chance to do it again? Hehe. I told Hubs this and he agreed to my reasoning. So there I have it, we will develop Beanie's room into a fully furnished nursery room. Yay!
As usual, I searched Pinterest for some ideas and found really cool ones. I've already found the type of crib that I like, one that can be convertible and fit up to a 7 year old kid. What's more, there are good deals for 2nd-hand ones in Carousell.
There's this Carousell seller selling the crib at $200. The retail price is $399 and she claimed that the condition is 9.5/10. Also, she is staying nearby my new place! Great deal right??!! *do the happy dance*
But I have yet to get Hubs approval. Piang! Prays that he say ok!
Anyway, back to the nursery room décor, I have started to imagine the room to be filled with strips and patterned curtain, buntings, crib, dressers, sofa bed or sofa lounge and carpet. Sounds like a lot of things but I'm definitely going to have it. As I've said, this could be my first and last! LOL.
So here are some ideas which I've gotten, all from Pinterest.
I love it, I love it! I can't wait to know the Beanie's gender so that I can fully determine if it's going to be blue décor or pink décor. One of Hubs friend got to know their baby's gender and his wife is about 4 months plus pregnant. Tomorrow I'll be 15 weeks, syukur alhamdullilah, but sadly, my next appointment will not have any scan done. My next scan will be on 16th March (by then I'm about 5 months), on Hubs birthday. Well, that's seems ok, like a birthday surprise awaiting him! Hehe!
Beanie, you are going to be so loved by both of us. But when we have to be strict, do understand us that it's for your own good ok? I love you, from Mommy and Daddy.
Leah A A
After chatting with mom yesterday, I can't wait to start decorating my nursery room for little Beanie because she is sponsoring some items to ease us financially. Initially hubs and I wanted to make it simple and easy, just placing a mattress and recycle our Toyogo storage to store baby stuff since baby will grow up fast. Hubs ever mentioned that he only wanted 1 child (although he ever asked for at least 2) and that's because he is worried he cannot support the child financially.
So this could be or could be not... my only child (I wanted 3!!)
If it is, then I should take this opportunity and do up my nursery room like every other new moms right? Besides, what if I never get the chance to do it again? Hehe. I told Hubs this and he agreed to my reasoning. So there I have it, we will develop Beanie's room into a fully furnished nursery room. Yay!
As usual, I searched Pinterest for some ideas and found really cool ones. I've already found the type of crib that I like, one that can be convertible and fit up to a 7 year old kid. What's more, there are good deals for 2nd-hand ones in Carousell.
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But I have yet to get Hubs approval. Piang! Prays that he say ok!
Anyway, back to the nursery room décor, I have started to imagine the room to be filled with strips and patterned curtain, buntings, crib, dressers, sofa bed or sofa lounge and carpet. Sounds like a lot of things but I'm definitely going to have it. As I've said, this could be my first and last! LOL.
So here are some ideas which I've gotten, all from Pinterest.
I love it, I love it! I can't wait to know the Beanie's gender so that I can fully determine if it's going to be blue décor or pink décor. One of Hubs friend got to know their baby's gender and his wife is about 4 months plus pregnant. Tomorrow I'll be 15 weeks, syukur alhamdullilah, but sadly, my next appointment will not have any scan done. My next scan will be on 16th March (by then I'm about 5 months), on Hubs birthday. Well, that's seems ok, like a birthday surprise awaiting him! Hehe!
Beanie, you are going to be so loved by both of us. But when we have to be strict, do understand us that it's for your own good ok? I love you, from Mommy and Daddy.
Leah A A
Monday 26 January 2015
LEAH's Kitchen: Jemput-jemput Udang (Prawn Fritters)
One day, my mom brought back some #prawnfritters home from her workplace. I didn't expect it to be so addictive, especially when your teeth sinks in into the prawn meat in the fritters itself. Yummy! My husband got so addicted to it that he asked me to learn how to make it. Ok, Mr Husband, you asked for it, so you will get it :)
Jemput-Jemput Udang (Prawn Fritters)
Ingredients:
4 cups of flour
2 eggs
1.5 tsp of salt
0.5 tsp of ajinomoto
2 tsp of turmeric powder
1 large onion (blended)
1 cup of spinach (boiled and cut finely)
Handful of parsley (daun sop)
16 pcs fresh prawns (peeled and cut into small pieces)
Chilli padi (chopped finely)
Water
Instructions:
- Sift flour into a large mixing bowl. Add eggs, salt, ajinomoto and turmeric powder.
- Pouring in water bit by bit into the bowl, start mixing the ingredients inside the bowl till batter is evenly mixed. Batter should not be too thick or too liquid. Add water/flour to adjust texture accordingly (for me, I used a blender at the end to make the batter smoother).
- Add onion, spinach, parsley, prawns and chilli padi into the batter. Mix evenly again.
- Pour substantial amount of cooking oil into a frying pan to start deep-frying fritters. Using a tablespoon, pour in the mixture one by one to get the fritter's shape desired (Mine looked flat, you can add self-raising flour to give it more shape).
- Deep fry fritter till it turn golden brown and crisp. Serve with chilli sauce.
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